The Rantings of the Proud :]

realization

myexbf — Sat, 09 May 2009 22:49:03 +0000

i’ve come to realize, that one’s willpower may not be strong enough to fulfill one’s desires.

all my life, ive worked hard for things ive wanted, and most of the time God spoiled me by giving me everything i needed. not once have i appreciated this fact. and now, i look back and remininse the things i sould have treasured.

now, when i really want something, i feel that gut feeling where you just want it so bad, but you know its not going to happen. not today, not tomorrow, not ever. no matter how hard you try, life won’t give it to you.

maybe, this is my karma. hopefully it’s not yours too.

and this is the reason, i wont let you go in my heart, but i will simply embrace the facts of life. i still evol you. but i cant evah you. so i will let. you. go.

good-bye.

-missteddybear

i just don’t know anymore.

myexbf — Wed, 06 May 2009 01:03:48 +0000

alright, so. boyfriend problems? or more like, ex-bf problems? got a wholeeeee lot.

what kind of a guy would break up with a girl over aim, then trash her to her friends just cause he was upset? really, MAN UP. i can’t believe you would do that. it’s like i don’t even KNOW YOU.

so, i don’t get why guys don’t understand girls. i make it perfectly clear what my intentions are, what i want, what i don’t, and i don’t really expect to be treated like a princess. maybe you shouldn’t act like such a jack ass. –;

maybe i still miss you. maybe i still love you. maybe i still care. maybe i just want to kick you out of my life.

ehhh.

yours truly, heartsandcrossbones

the suckers

myexbf — Tue, 05 May 2009 21:51:26 +0000

recently, ive come to realize that i am not the only one with issues regarding my ex boyfriend. you look at this title and wonder…”what does she mean, suckers?” and here i will answer that. i am proud to admit, i’ve had a boyfriend who completely sucked the life out of me. by “suck the life out of me” i dont mean he bit my neck and drained me of blood and left me pale and lifeless on the cold hard cement, i mean, he was always craving attention.

perhaps the problem was that i didnt have enough evergy or will power to keep up to his desires. and yet i think again and realize this is not my fault. it should not be a requirement for girls to sit there and worship their boyfriends- we might as well be slaves. which is something i am NOT planning to do.

for example, technology has allowed us teens to talk to eachother and show affection by using symbols such as: <3 or ;] or . however, the matter of fact is, these show no more meaning than the symbols that are used. just because one types a smiley face does not mean that person is actually smiling. then again, even if he or she did or did not, no one would know unless webcams were also in use. but the point is, if i didnt choose to use a smiley after a statement i said, he would automatically assume something was either sarcastic, or meant negativly, which was not the case at the time.

things that are not exactly the most important things may cause you to over work yourself and just annoy you. so girls out there, that feel the need to attend to a boyfriend “just because”, think again because you only have one life, and you dont want to spend it on someone else. if you are offended by my words or disagree, feel free to leave a comment. i will reply.

yours truly,

miss teddy bear